What is a grudge? What does it mean to you? Are they real? Do / Should they exist? Are they just mean?
Again someone told me I hold grudges for a really long time. I am pondering with a major headache whether or not I do. I always looked at those deep scars in my mind and heart as an out of sight, out of conversation, out of mind. I had been told I cut people out of my life too soon. I never thought of it that way. I just stopped putting out the energy for them. As my husband and I talked about it he said it depends on how others look at it. Me having ill feelings about someone, just not trying to maintain a relationship, and shutting down when spoken about could appear as a grudge to another. Is it a grudge or just not forgiving? I don't go out of my way to show, express or let anyone know that I have ill feelings when they are around. I cannot pretend that I am over what happened. There is no pretending we are "cool". I accept they exist but when heartache struck multiple times I said I am done and meant it. I am told people change as well as circumstances but who they were is still there and I don't know if I can trust that side won't show itself. Is that wrong?
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