With my eyes closed I could see and hear crackling and images trying to come in and out like a bad or unavailable station on a television. Images were beginning to appear, black and white at first then turning to color. There were grey faces with gleaming blue eyes. I could hear wolves howling and then they appeared at first one then many. I woke to the largest of them all standing next to the bed but was not scared. The wolf was becoming a man and he was beautiful. Something must have happened, do not know what because when I woke I was lying next to him with my head on his chest, my arm over his stomach, my knee on top of his, his arm holding me close. I did not know who he was but it was comfortable, familiar somehow. I wondered if he was real or if I was dreaming. I thought to myself, “If I am dreaming I must look funny in the position I am in, holding someone that is not here”. My thought was confirmed when people came walking in the room, looked in my direction and said nothing to me. I appeared to be sleeping. I thought, “Do they not see him?” I smiled, closed my eyes, and pulled him closer.
I woke in the same blue and orange room this time alone. I lay on my back staring at the ceiling with that now old thought of the one I have been missing. I closed my eyes to sleep and dream. I began to feel myself being lifted and I could see I was heading towards the window and knew I was beginning my dream travel. The more I thought of him the further I was being lifted, the closer to the window I got, suddenly I stopped. I realized I got distracted. I closed my eyes then began moving out the window. I was being pulled in a direction that felt like miles. I left in daylight, before I knew it the night had come, it was dark. I could see neighborhood lights beneath me. Where was I going? Could I have been going to the one I had been thinking of? The more I thought about him the faster I went, almost too fast. I had been attached to a brown belt and had to tighten it, thinking I was going to slip away.
I do not how long I went for or how far I went. I did not see him but woke in the dark realizing I had been dreaming and had gone in one very large circle. I sat up and said to myself, “How strange was that? I need to write all that down.” I got out of bed, walked to the bathroom, stared in the mirror and turned on the water. I splashed some water on my face and could not stop thinking about my dream. Was I going to remember all the details when I wrote them down? Why was I having the thoughts I was? Why did I have that dream? I was searching for meaning as I began brushing my teeth.
I heard a voice saying “bye babe”, and felt my body jump. I woke suddenly to the words “sorry” in my ear trying to see in the dark room. I received a kiss and said, “You tore me from a dream”, then turned over. I realized I had been dreaming. I had not woken up like I thought. I had been dreaming the whole time. My body jumping was me returning from my journey. I lay there pondering it all, trying to recollect every detail. I closed my eyes again and began a new dream.
When I woke again looking at the clock, I realized it had been a couple hours. I tried to recollect the details of the last dream without success. I was only seeing the prior, it was much stronger. I got out of bed, took a shower, did my hair, sat down at the computer, and began to write what you have just read.
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